natural energy

while my master last will start it to training my body to catch the power of natural energy however in that time i rethink my inner chakra  flow and feeling the wind around me making sure no one around to see me i required to balance a physical and spiritual energy with the natural energy to gathers from nature which it never happen. i sit down to meditating try to feel the spiritual chakra as did the nine tail as he make me look down me saying i can't do it. more and more i start it feeling loneliness feel inside my heart as my father death saving the village, my best friend saving my life and my Master save those poor kids from those rouge ninja however i look at myself in my inner thoughts how selfish i look i become i am stonger like the hokage be yet weak knowing that one day i will day by my own people hand; I hope one day my village will accept me even if i am jerk to them that how they cost me pain inside

few days has pass since i start it my training for Natural energy i run back to lady luna to ask her if i can go out town for before i want to lady luna i want home to get really to leave the village to look for new skill to learn hoping i learn how to use the Natural energy and the nine tail inside me. how ever i still got lot to do